Monday, July 06, 2009
@1:05 PM
It's really really difficult, trying to get life back to normal. I can't take it. =( I don't want to accept the truth of the situation, even though it's right there in front of me and I can't change it. I'm not ready to let go of you so quickly (as if I want to at all), but it's really hard to start distancing myself from you. A little bit at a time, I tell myself. But I still can't help wanting to get closer.
And it's really really hard to be happy, because I'm only happy when I'm with you. Faking a smile is so much harder than it looks. =(
I really don't know what to do now.
And I feel like we won't be able to go back to square one when I can finally solve this. It's as if we'll be stuck forever at square zero. =( (Hope this feeling goes away soon.)
And I think I'm over-reacting, but it seems like you still don't want to talk to me. Or maybe as friends, we have nothing to talk about.
What's the point of this ever happening if you still avoid me? I am willing to let you go if you are happier off without me, but I don't want to be sad either..
And you probably don't know, but I suffer the most when you avoid me. =(
{♥} by the seaside