Saturday, May 24, 2008
@4:50 PM
Feeling depressed today. Kept crying after listening to emo songs. (I kind of think listening to my music as a test. If I can't help crying then there's something wrong.)
Maybe it's the disappointment of yesterday? I'm not too sure. Although I should think it is.
It is, after all, the first time in a super long time that I actually felt so excited and happy to just THINK about something. Ever since... ...
Oh well, I think it was just too much hope. Wishful thinking, maybe. Although I think that if the miracle I have been waiting for was going to happen, yesterday was the time. So I just think that it's so wasted. =( And I might not even have the chance again.
I just can't take it lying down. It was so close, just within my grasp. But it had to be taken away.
ARGH. I hate things I can't control.
WHY WHY WHY.
Cat and Mouse - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Softly we tremble tonight,
Picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in sight,
I said I'd never leave you'll never change
I'm not satisfied with where I'm at in life.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said, you said that you would die for me...
We made plans to grow old,
Believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told.
Lost in a simple game cat and mouse are we the same people as before this came to light?
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said, you said that you would die for me...
You must live for me too'...
For me too...yeah, yeah...
You said that you would die for me...
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
You said, you said that you would die for me...
LOL of the day: I'm not in the mood, sorry. Plus I have to go for stupid training later. I am just really tired..
Am I supposed to be happy?
{♥} by the seaside
